Mistakes cont'd

After the divorce of my first husband, I was lonely.  I wanted so badly to have a happy marriage and family.  I wanted and needed a father figure in the home for my kids.  But, I wasn't exactly thinking with a Christian mindset.  See, even though I had been raised in church, no one had ever taught me that Christians should not be with non Christians!  I really did not know this important fact.  Not sure that it would have changed things, but it definitely would have helped me the second time around.
My next husband was someone I had grew up with!  His sister was one of my best friends in school.  I met him when I was only twelve years old!  We lived together for two years, and during that time we were happy.  So, we got married.  Everything changed as soon as we said the I do's, and not for the better.  Just one week after our wedding he hit me for the first time.  Nothing was as humiliating as being seen with a black eye.  The way people looked at me, and the questions that I didn't know how to answer.  He remained abusive not only physically, but verbally and emotionally for out entire ten year marriage.  I won't go into all the details in this post.  But know this, I am not one to not fight back.  I will not just sit and be a victim. Ever.  I had him put in jail and divorced him.  The only really good thing to come out of that marriage was my three beautiful kids I had with him.
It was during this marriage that I really turned to God for answers.  I began to see the mistakes I had made, and that God did have a plan and a future for me.  I cried out to God.  I so desperately wanted and deserved to be loved.  I wanted a husband.    God heard my cries and He answered.  He brought back into my life, my true husband.  God answered my prayer and it is a beautiful love story. But, that is for another post.